I had so much fun at the Carnival in the Community Center tonight. It was amazing! I went with my youth group and we just hung out and ate till we were sick and ran around trying to jack candy from the stands and stuff. Then we goofed off on JMS campus and it was really dark and spooky. I was supposed to go with my friend Sunday and see a movie but it didn't work out. I need to call her and talk to her so we can hang out another time. We are a lot more alike now that we're all in high school. OHHHHHH! The Used are coming to LA on the 10th!!! I wanna see them so bad! I'm listening to them rite now.

"You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams." -Dr. Seuss

Hehe, I like my background...it's pretty.

Shoot! My computer hates me!!! I had to create a new blog for no reason cause my friking retarded laptop wouldn't let me back into this one!

Haha. I shouldn't be laughing but I am. I knew it wouldn't last. They broke up. This relationship lasted um a little less than a week. I just knew like I always know with all my girlfriends like her. "I found the perfect guy," they say giggling like they're in middle school still. Then they go through the pathetic list of all the good things about the guy. I force a light note into my voice and say, "I'm so happy for you. He sounds wonderful." I don't believe it though. I can't even tell them that I feel like this guy isn't the "right one". They all ask me for advice and I give them true raw blunt advice and they ignore it. It's really exhausting.

She did it. She's been trying to do this for weeks now. She has been obsessing over it to the point where I wanted to take a gun to my head so I wouldn't have to keep dealing with the crap she was hurling at me over and over and over again. Well now she can't bother me. She finally got what she wanted. She finally poked her nose into places it shouldn't be, she was annoying and infantile and she got what she wanted. God, I bet it won't last. I bet that guy is a complete jerk. He seems really shallow and immature but she wanted him...so she went out and got him.

UUUUUUHHHHHHHH! MY FRIENDS ARE DRIVING ME INSANE!!! how is it that everytime I try to pick new friends that I hope are going to be calm, savvy, actually have a head on their shoulders and I pick the gals that are the preppiest, most dramatic idiotic girls in the world?!? Really, my friends seriously need to go on Ebay and find themselves real lives. They think their soooo cool and all that and they want me to be like them. I will never be like them. I'm never going let any of their crap get to me because I get tired of listeing to them complain and make fun of me because of the music i listen to, the stuff i say, the dreams i have, the plans i'm making.

"Be yourself, don't take anyone's [crap] and never let them take you alive."
~Gerard Way~

Um I just watched part of the movie Sweeney Todd. You know, the new one with Johnny Depp and Helena Bonham Carter. Its so disturbing. It made me sick to my stomach but strangely I'm enjoying it and I find myself singing along with the songs that I know. I finally stopped the movie at the part where the rival barber comes to Sweeney for a shave. Its a really gory bloody movie and I think in the end Sweeney kills them all. Oh I hope Anthony doesn't die. He's my favorite so far. And I just finished this disturbing book about a guy that gets bone cancer, starts to die slowly, decideds to kill himself with the help of his friends and sister so he can say he went out on his own timing and that the cancer didn't take him, he has a seizure a few days before he's about to kill himself, and in the end his sister comes to the hospital in a disguise, gives him a few insulin shots and he dies. Now, for happier or less gruesome news...haha yesterday I went to my guyfriend's house for a party. One of my sista friends showed up and and I got a kick outta watching her flirt with my guyfriend's cousin. Hey if you're reading this, yes you were flirting with him and yes hun, you were that obvious!!!

Ow. My mouth hurts. I went to the dentist yesterday and he had to give me some shots so he could numb my mouth. When he was done, my mouth felt so weird I was too paranoid to eat anything. That was at about 11 when we finished. Then at around 6:45 that night I was in my neighbors kitchen inhaling the mac and cheese that was supposed to be for the kids I was babysitting. Oh man, it was soooo good. Then I just drank milk out of their little sippy cups and truthfully, I was so content. I stood in front ot the sink and studied the sunset...sipping my milk thoughtfully. Then when I did the dishes I started to sing. I think I sing way too much because 5 year old Brooklyn rushed into the kitchen and asked, "Why are you singing?" Every child I've babysat has asked me that or askes, "Why do you sing so much?" I think its hysterical. I just tell 'em that I like to sing. You know what I noticed about myself? I can't stand jelly unless it has the seeds in it. I don't know why. I can't stand seedless jelly. Its soooooooo gross.

I finally did it. I cut my hair. Everyone tells me it looks darling and so cute. When they say that it makes me feel like a little kid but as long as they don't hate it. But I have to curl it a little in the morning so it doesn't stick to my face and look retarded. Haha I'm the kinda girl that uses a straightner to curl her hair...ha thats no joke. It's true. Straightners are much better than curling irons in my opinion. I don't want to go back to school on Tuesday. I enjoyed my week off too much. Well, gotta go and do whatever it is I do when I'm not blogging.